It took forever but I’m back. Summer was a success. I did get distracted right in the middle as things started to pick up with family vacations and trips with friends places and moving around a lot. I wanted to be in the moment and didn’t know how to balance recording it all. But man did I do a lot for myself. I’m proud because I showed myself that when I put myself up to something, I can get more done than I ever imagined. Don’t set yourself up for disappointment. It’s too easy to wait for things to come to you.
But let’s play catch up. Looking back I feel like summer was so long because of the perspective I took and everything I did. I didn’t complete every small goal I had, but I learned something much more important than that. You can be devoted to doing well for yourself, but it can’t get in the way of straight up living. I’m not a runner and I still don’t know jack shit about politics, but considering everything in the universe was going to get in the way of that, I figured it just wasn’t my time yet. I’m still young and my time is being spent the way I want it to. Its not that I did anything wrong. I just couldn’t be a super teen all at once. Things take time and I’ve got lots. A lifetime. (or until voting season BUT BACK TO MY POINT) Don’t tell yourself it’s too late or you lost your chance because most of the time that’s complete bullshit. I learned the importance of being completely reliant on yourself to make changes for you. Not your parents. Not your boyfriend/girlfriend. Not your teachers. You do what it takes to do what you want and get what you want done. Guess what. You’ll never be able to do it all at one time. Time is precious. Don’t procrastinate, but at the same time, learn to be patient with yourself. That doesn’t mean you can’t try. But what you can do is decide what’s important to you right now and make priorities for yourself. Don’t sweat the small stuff. The time will come, and you’ll be the one to decide when it is.
I had the time of my life this summer. From feeling healthy, to cleaning up and starting from square one with everything I own, to feeling confident in clothes I like, to going to the beach, going out with friends, spending precious time with family, working, but never too hard. The list goes on. I gained and lost a boyfriend, but I learned so much. Don’t regret or get bitter. Forgive. Forgive yourself. Forgive whoever it is you need to. Don’t let the silly emotion of anger get in the way of doing what you want to do for yourself. Be happy with yourself so you can make others happy. Love your family. Be young. You’ll never grow old. Physically yes, but I’ll be a kid forever as far as I’m concerned.
So, yes. Summer brought forth growth, love & lessons learned. Things don’t always go perfectly as planned, but I am so glad things turned out the way they did.
